curiosity

to eloquently quote albert:

my dear,

creativity doesn’t come from doing what you’re supposed to diligently (that’s discipline). no. creativity comes from trying things we’re not supposed to, from not using those ticking seconds efficiently, from avoiding work, from adding fun to a boring task, and from the mind that says to itself, “wouldn’t it be funny if…”

and what other time is this not more apparent than when we’re procrastinating and wasting time?


creativity is the residue of time wasted.

the creative being is at first, a horrible user of time; a time-waster.

Falsely yours,

Albert Einstein

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wasting time is luxurious, reckless, decadent. paradoxically productive.

and it makes people curious. annoyed. indifferent. alarmed. obsessive. laugh.

the tallest poppy is the first to be eaten, lopped off.

appear to waste time, to willfully squander it without documentation, without counting, without the seconds meaning money or the minutes meaning production.

others will wonder. ponder. inquire. conspire. construct theories. move their pawn in front of your knight, their bishop next to your queen.

they are dying to know what would happen to them if they did what you do...

scorn, they believe, is the punishment for pleasure. so is it true -- they demand to know. you play hero, they play villain. the battle begins.

jealousy is like the tree avoided on a hill -- avoidance creates a backward magnetism. no no no becomes a certain yes.

what would happen if the worst became true? rather than finding out for themselves, it becomes a game of synthetic circumstance.

how would a human -- unfettered by a common brand of inhibition -- react to opposition x? y? z?

and so jealousy is the cousin of curiosity -- a sort of fear braided into fascination and contempt. an unconscious longing, sparked by an imperceptible void.

your piece is my piece, it says. i can't have mine if you have yours.